New mid-year resolutions ;)

I’ve been thinking about the past year and me. I’ve decided that time has come for some positive changes, which I am excited about and actually feel like I can accomplish. Change doesn’t happen all at once-it’s a new lifestyle that I have to develop and make habit.

I never knew how tired I really was. I can’t tell you when it started but last spring,, summer and through the winter I just was so exhausted all the time. I would get home from work and crash. I would wake up tired-no matter how much or how little sleep I got. Sometimes I couldn’t even sleep at nights unless I took enough Benadryl to knock me out. Even then I wasn’t resting. I tried improving my diet, and exercising more, nothing really made a difference. I realized that there was no reason for me to be so tired-I do work full time but that was about all I was accomplishing. My schoolwork fell behind and my housekeeping habits declined. I was feeling depressed from fatigue and being a little homesick and feeling under accomplished too I think. I went to a new doctor, the one I went to last year just blew it off. She sent a variety of blood tests to the lab for me and put me on a light sleep aide (which works great for me). I began to sleep better immediately feeling a lot more rested. I had more energy but was still lacking. Once all of the tests came back they call and said that I was actually pretty low on my Vitamin D levels, which can cause my symptoms. She put me on a super-dose of that and said I should start noticing a little difference in a week but over time it would greatly improve. I asked if I spent more time outside or if I ate more yogurt if it would help. Apparently with my problem it was really beyond those healthy things we do like take our daily vitamin and eat well. She said there wasn’t really a reason-it just happens sometimes.

I am so happy to say that it has made an amazing difference. I cannot even believe how much better I feel. I can honestly say now that I did not truly understand how tired I was then until I look back now.  I am sleeping better. I have energy beyond work. I have more energy at work-my co-workers noticed the difference without me even pointing it out,  just because of my appearance. I want to do more when I get home than sleep, and I have the energy and desire to go do outside chores or start a project.

I think it’s time to take my new found energy and work towards reversing my bad tired habits. I’ve made up some lists to try to help me accomplish things when I want them to be done-such as homework, cleaning tasks, planning tasks, garden and outdoor things, etc. I am excellent at making lists and poor at completing them. I used to love to check off the last item-but lately it seems like I make them so long they are impossible to finish. I have thought about this one-to make it a lifestyle again-not just a huge unreachable goal. I’m still not sure if there are enough hours in the day to complete what I have put down-but I won’t know how far I can go until I take the journey.  Wish me luck!